Tragedy and The Future of the channel - Sir Render
1Sir Render -
My mom passed
I'm still dealing with it
I don't have anything set in stone right yet
I don't even really know what I should do
I cannot express enough how much of my passion for Youtube
was fuled by how much I love my parents and my desire to share
the things I love with them
I've always been shy and my parents are old fashioned people
They never really understood my fascination with Video games
I really wanted to express it to them in a way they could understand
My mom was always a bit easier to talk to than my dad about these things
but she still never really got it
Still I love them both so very much I'd tell them I love them so many
times throughout the day check on them throughout the night
Give them tons of hugs possibly to the point of annoyance XD
and now I can't do that for mom anymore
I can't express how I feel about things I never properly shared
I can't just spend time with her or watch her cooking shows with her
there's just so much I wish I could have done still and I'm
unbelievably frustrated with myself for losing that time
I'm overwhelmed with feelings I don't really understand
Greif really messed me up but I believe I must not lose
I hurt really bad but I don't want to lose
So like I said in the video
I plan to finish the River City Girls Playthrough with proper editing
It isn't going to happen for a bit I've tried to do the editing
but my motivation to do much of anything is rock bottom
As for RCG2 I plan to do it some time with Tendeth
we haven't even played it yet but I feel like blegh right now
so it might be some time before we even give it a go
I'd also like to get Nioh 2 done sometime
I loved that game a lot too
SAO Fractured Daydream I'm tempted to just
post the entire unedited playthrough
if I didn't scavenger hunt every single battle
it wouldn't be a bad decision
Granblue Relink I also would like to put up the epilogue
and some of the better boss fights just because
I genuinely loved that game
though I'm almost okay with leaving it where it's at to be honest
but at the moment these are just my wishes to get these done
I hate leaving playthroughs unfinished
I'll probably throw more Marvel Rivals gameplay up in the mean time
Tendeth and I are playing it quite a bit to help take my mind off things
I have our journey this season from Bronze to Gold so it might be
a bit more entertaining for people to watch
Also after I finish my River City Girls Playthrough
I'm going to try to change the borders of our Video Thumbnails
they used to be Soulcalibur 6's Map border but blue because
I really liked Soulcalibur 6 and their attempt at a fun CaC story
reminded me of SC3 stuff that I liked alot
But I'm planning to change it to a Photo of the Eclipes I took with my mom
It was the last time we spent together just the two of us on something
I wanted to record it so we could watch it together after the next eclipse
because I'm sentimental like that but then this happened and yea
So I plan to work it into the Video Border if I can cause the time
we spent together means a lot to me and also it looked really cool
Anyway that's everything I left unsaid in the video because
I forgot to talk about it due to how I was at the time
Everyone Stay Safe and if you can
please be honest with yourselves enjoy life with those you care about
Time may heal all wounds but you gotta mend them right
Thank you for watching our videos
I hope they may bring you joy in the future
Good Knight