“And I find it kinda funny, and I find it kinda sad.”
9“Us spirits long for the taste of death. It’s something we cannot get. Unless we are no longer needed, are killed by another spirit or we find an heir, we cannot die. We cannot die by the hands of mortals. This is why so many spirits died in the spirit war. It wasn’t by mortals. We destroyed ourselves. It was a dream for many people to become a spirit. Including me. Now that I’ve reached becoming a spirit, I no longer want it. I’m lucky that I’m not a spirit people worship. I would feel even more guilty if that was the case. I don’t feel like a spirit. I don’t feel worthy to have ascended to become a spirit… I just want to be mortal again. Even if I was still the holder as Metztli and Vasco. I want things to be like they were back then. I know Ermis feels the same way. He doesn’t want to admit it, but I can see it in his eyes every time I bring it up. He misses mortality. Maybe he misses his brother, his father, his friends. I don’t know. He doesn’t have to tell me. I know who i miss, and he knows who he misses. We just want to be mortals again. And it was all because we acknowledged the Domina Rubei. All because of her…”