Morning Exercise #002 - Beats Fever - Yes, I exercised today.

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Published on May 2, 2018 7:25:17 AM ● Video Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q-Koc5OANXI

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Beats Fever (2017)

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050118

Internet was garbage here today. Don't care. I still exercised.

Look, I might has some motivational issues that need to be worked out, and I wanted to do something that meant something- well, anything, really - and I guess that's why you're still reading.

Mornings are garbage for me. I wish it wasn't this way.

I go to bed every night, grateful for being a living, sentient human... but also praying to god I will wake up in the morning able to continue my amazing journey.

In my defense, who hasn't dreamed of having a fistful of rubies, stuffed deep in our pockets, but when we awoke we found nothing?

Every morning for me is a deep and pervasive emptiness. There is no magic. There is no ideal. There is no zenith.

There is only the soul crushing weight of obligations to the people I've let down.

And I usually crumble under this weight.

But damnitall.

I started playing this Beat game when I weighed 333 POUNDS. I now weigh 280.

Okay, full transparency - I've been floating between 280 and 290 for a while now, but then again, I haven't been getting in my steps much lately.

But here's what made me want to start over again. To really make a run for the stoop of Howl's Castle.

Last year, I made a whopping 37 cents before Youtube instituted its 10,000 views in order to monetize criteria.

It might mean nothing to you, but every penny I made was worth a thousand dollars to me. When they cut my funds and told me that I wasn't even allowed to make money until 10,000 people had seen my videos, I nearly gave up.

I didn't start my channel so I could become rich. I started it because I live in a leaky trailer next to a haunted house and I had the unmitigated audacity to want something more than that.

I want a home, a place to raise kids and finish my novel.

Well, I made it to that 10k goal. And it felt good.

Two weeks later, I learned that Youtube's monetization goals had changed again.

Nobody cares about your Ten Thousand Views, ya wanker! What I want is a THOUSAND followers, and... yeah, like 4000 hours of watch time, but only if it's within a year's time... Toddle on, mate.

And I wanted to quit.

Actually, I think I did for a bit. February. Bit dry, that month was.

But I came back.

TLDR: My Manic Depressive Low State was like, "Give Up, Loser," but my Manic Depressive High State was like, "If you're tired of starting over, stop giving up!"

Alright, suddenly I'm a bit self conscious.

I was gonna leave links here to some of the things I do, but I can't. i just want to get up in the morning and do something. It might not be important to a great deal of people, but some folks might need to see some idiot acting crazy to make whatever it is they have to do seem a bit less lame.

I guess what I'm saying is... I want to be like morning coffee. And yeah, losing more weight also sounds really good.

Besides, I'm not even monetized, and even if i was, this video has copyrighted music, and would be blocked anyway.

As far as I'm concerned, this is a public service. Jack Lalane is way better, but I'm glad you visited anyway.

Seriously, if you've read this far, feel free to toss in some requests. I'm here to lose some weight and be a positive contribution to this world. I'd prefer to stay in VR, but I'm kinda more interested in not dying from Diabetes!

See you guys tomorrow.

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