Game:

Need for Speed: The Run (2011)

Duration: 0:31

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someone please save me from this non stop downward spiral into depression and anxiety causing constant pain towards everyone i know, therefore causing constant pain towards me. i also do not like how hard it is to express my inner sadness towards others due to the constant fear that they would not care and leave me thinking i'm "one of those people" and maybe telling me that i should listen to the thoughts in my head and finally take my own life since the lines on my arm evidently say that i do want to, in fact, commit suicide. i'm sick of everyone leaving me every time that i end up moving away from that town, leaving a large hole, no, void in my heart, in other words, hurting my sensitive feelings greatly. my only wish is to be able to stay with the same circle of friends instead of being forced to move on at least once or twice a year, since people easily lose interest in me. sure, having many friends is cool, but it isn't very cool when they cut contact with you, then conveniently find you years down the line just to use you. i'm just tired, i want to finally sleep and be able to dream of a different reality where nothing can go wrong, instead of nothing or the same nightmare having you prematurely wake up from much needed sleep. this is consequently the cause of most of my misfortune in being able to apply for a job so i can finally do something with what could have been a long and meaningful life where my firends and family are proud of my accomplishments instead of looking down on me as i stay a shut in due to a constant fear of other people which ironically lead me to being how i am today, a worthless pile of trash, waiting months or even years to rot as my consistent sulking in my cramped room filled with modern creature comforts such as but not limited to: a shelf,. that's about it really. everything i do always seem sub-par to say the most compared to other people, which in turn makes me feel as if i'm not good enough, which makes for a steeper/quicker downward spiral into my already horrible self hate as i belittle myself for not living up to people's expectations, even mine. now if you don't mind me, i'm expecting myself to search up pictures or hentai of nadeshiko kagamihara or ijn atago to distract myself from the fact that i'm absolutely of no value in this world and everyone would be better off without me. i just want to be likable to my friends that probably hate my over the top personality and my inferiority complex.

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