One of the various EoTY 2023 special: Reading of the best passage of story I've read in 2023

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There was suppossed to be more - a song cover with my horseshit (actually just not female) voice accompanied with a massive 10-day session of sore throat and coughing, a bigass Google Docs and a perfect run of Aimi, but, uhhhh, was working on something that was just done 5 hours ago so that's left for CNY.

So, romance and BtR fanfics. One of the main themes of my 2023.
Romance played a major part in my 2023 - well, it is also tied to many other things, but ah well. I am certain that this is the most "extreme" one I had so far, as in, most intense, sad, happy and whatever I've ever been from romance. On one hand, I got to experience the most fluffy, heart-wwarming, at ease romance I've ever had. On the other hand, the worst dogshit and the biggest pile of snowballing messy shitty so far. Really funny though.

The year 2023 have made me a sucker for romance, and fucking BtR has made me.......a lot, uhhh, many things. Not that I don't like to bring it up, just that now is not the time (fuck I haven't even written much of the book since April. We will get there when we get there though, so stay tuned for the next 15 years!!!!). Like holy shit back then in Feb my reaction to BtR fics and fanarts was akin to that of a starving African child while looking at food or something. Even beyond that point, being in contact with romance after trying to avoid it like the plague for the past 4 years or something allowsmfor one hell of an experience.. Still, though, romance is fucking fun. Love that shit.

In terms of....affection, this year has the worst one ever since that fateful day in Jun 2017 for me? Literally the closest to being depressed I've ever had. Again, it is somewhat a snowball of despair all starting on an April afternoon, which is...funny. Still, though, the triple KO combo is not funny, the ghosting is not funny, but then, seeing the somewhat doomer uncaring mf borderline lighted up during....certain moments and all of the haha funny panic as if the fucker was back at 6th grade or something is certainly funny as hell.

In terms of fanfics, well, uhhh, yeah, it made me go through a lot. Definitely the main driving factor that made me the gex demon (??) I am nowadays, fr fr. BtR fanfics definitely made my year - seeing that the entir first 6 months of 2023 has something going on with BtR fics myself. You see, I used to read funky Wattpad things back then in 2019. Overtime I strayed away from those kind of thing. Until a random fucking Reddit comment gave a hyperlink to The First Star. My god, that shit definitely setted up something I wasn't ready to face. For once, I am willing to read romance again (perhaps because of what's going on with my life in parallel). For once, this motherfucker needs 2 fucking months to have the courage to type fucking AO3 into the searchbar (and not access BtR fics through the link to TFS in his browser history, haha). For once, I get to see that, despite everything, the haha tsundere funny part of me is still....there, long after I thought that part has died in 6th grade or something.

Funny BtR fanfics also helped me realize exactly what I love and hate, and contribhted a lot to the development of uhh, my existential fantasy philosophy. You see, interacting with the BtR fic writers in the Discord made me, uhh, think a lot. Going back as far as summer 2017, I already had something with how fictional characters was written by authors to die, to serve a purpose and whatnot - and all the unnecessary angst just made me spend some time and actually realize my straight up hatred towards that kind of thing. Then, the uneccessary prose and deep words the fucking authors of a fucking fanfic about high school girls kissing made me realize how much I hate unnnecessary words, and uhhh, even further, the fact that people tried to mask things as what they aren't, the fact that for fucks sake uneeded complexity is considered beauty and the "illusion" people put themself under? All of that thing that basically solidified and specified my existential philosophy, from something that isn't real? what thr fuck lmao.

The most important fanfic of all - of course, is Darcky's second fic - Hitori's Side Story. Remember the previous passage? (you should, otherwise your memory is dysfunctional). That shit is the driving factor of too many things in my 2023. Most of the things said before applied to that fic, but, ultimately, what it affected me the most is in the side of "how should you create a story". My thoughts about it is still there - on the final chapter, but, basically, I do realize that when you were actively trying to write a good story where emotions was the initial focus, eventually you will just focus more in "creating a good story" than "creating a good romance". While writing TFS (which is, still, among the best fics Ive read), Darcky was straight up motivated by the brainrot and, while TFS has only an average prose and story, it is among the best piece of romance I've read this year.







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