"The Outcast" Original Song
1So something I wanted to adress straight away, is although I can't make sense of it (nor can anyone around me, including professionals) I can turn my emotions on and off at will. My friend described it as "An emotional lightswitch"
I feel this is the PERFECT analogy to describe it (hence why I was able to go from joking around to being in one of those moods in the span of a few seconds)
I also can control the severity to which things, particulary emotions, affect me (Although I do just keep it to myself so when I stockpile any given emotion for long enough it all comes out at once with a VERY strong impact as it's been so long and I can no longer restrain myself. I do this because I prefer to break myself than involve others in buisness that would just bog them down (For context, I'm the most selth-loathing person alive, and would've gladly screamed at my mother to swallow if I was capable, and alongside that, value myself to little if any degree)