this is what i do when i'm not playing with friends (read description)

Channel:

Cydern

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Published on April 4, 2022 12:00:00 AM ● Video Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UOP41D4G3lg

Game:

Garry's Mod (2004)

Duration: 0:45

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I captured this using the Instant Replay feature on AMD Radeon Software, I really only got the idea once that goddamn miscall snapped me back to reality

The Music:    • Carlito - ¡Alarma Caramba! (Somebody ...  

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For all you guys here watching, I bet you thought I died lol, but I hope you didn't hope for it.

Yeah, I know I've only made one video this year, which just so happens to be on the first day of the year, but I've decided to make a lil secret update down here to tell you the scoop that even the tabloids don't know, so I'll get started.

For reasons, I ended up moving into a new school in December of last year. I was able to crank out that FNAF video and successfully contract a deadly virus during Christmas break, but after that was a goddamn anchor ship of stress, having a hard time making friends at my new school, dropping grades, yada yada.

For my own survival (and more importantly my integrity) I tried focusing a lot on keeping myself in check so I don't spawn a black hole in my skull.

I tried to get back to making videos, I notably recorded a playthrough of the demo for "My Friendly Neighborhood" and its own circle of hell: "Wild Animal Racing", but I didn't quite have the motivation to edit those videos into something I could upload because I had an ass-load more things I needed to worry about.

Almost a month ago, I was talking to my therapist I got earlier in the year due to the terrorism against my poor innocent soul and she talked to me about the very high possibility that I had Social Anxiety Disorder, which when she asked me if I felt that was true when she told me I said: "Well... Yeah"

So to make a long story for someone with a short attention span, I'm now taking medication to aid my anxiety, which I believe I working as I can talk to someone next to me without interdimensionally imploding.

I've gotten more confidence to upload more stuff onto the channel, but I do want it to be different than the videos I've made before.

I've tried capturing clips like this one with friends and random games and I hope I can compile them into a video and/or series in a CallMeCarson-esqe fashion (in the sense that a bunch of losers get into a discord call or play games when chaos ensues).

I've already got 23 Gigabytes worth of clips, some of which won't even see the light of day, but I still got a long way to go until I can confidently say there's enough to upload. I'd also have to consult people that are in the clips if it would be okay for them to be in a public video, so there's still a ways to go.

I'm really hoping for the best, you dudes' comments make me really happy, so thanks. See ya if or when this even works out.

Cya

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