Trapdoor RWBY Audio Visualizer
45RWBY Volume 9 OST\n\nCasey Lee Williams and Martin Gonzalez SNAPPED SO HARD with Trapdoor for RWBY. That song and Guide my Way (Red Like Roses Pt. III) are definitely my top favorites. Neo's jabberwalkers vs Team RWBY fight was also insanely good too! This song supremely resonated with me and I've had it on loop for awhile, and it hits too close to home for me.
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If you are still reading this, this is my vent letter that I probably will not do again once this is posted:
I want to preface that this may annoy people or may seem childish on my end writing this, I acknowledge my flaws on that and I am sorry. I cannot describe all these negative emotions, but if you read this and get it, I hope you do cuz I can't even comprehend it all myself. 2023 has been one of the worst years I've had and this song hit me so hard because of an episode I've had. I have suffered from narcissistic abuse and was toyed with, gaslighted, and most of the lyrics resonated with me for how I was honestly feeling. I usually am not this open and I am still healing but I have been a mess. I was pointed wrong to showing how I feel and even asking help from friends and acquaintances in a desperate time. I try to give the situation the benefit out of the doubt so many times and I needed reassurance but then it became impossible of how worthless I was being treated and was feeling. I did the very best I could and though I know the truth about what happened, I have not felt great about myself in any way. I am happy that I finally cut the toxic trash out of my life, but it has not been easy. There are things I know and finally understand and I wish I did not. It's not fun. Funnily enough, RWBY Volume 9 with Ruby's development was very similar to how I've been thinking about things, been feeling, and what I want to do but cannot openly say or do. I have been talking about this for a long time now and I probably am not finished with it because it has screwed with my feelings, my head, and to some degree, how I am. I hope I can reclaim what I lost and I will be okay again. I will find the day where I will stop apologizing for being myself. If any old friends read this, I hope you are doing well and I hear from you again. I'd reach out but I have felt like a bother and a failure after what happened and the lyrics resonate exactly my thought process. Thank you to whoever reads this and I hope you (assuming you are a good person) never come across a confusing mentally screwed situation ever.