Amnesia (cover)

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Sean Awesome

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Published on October 1, 2020 4:43:55 PM ● Video Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NUo8WGqRWvw

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Story IS THE MOST important thing to me!
As such, I only sing songs that I feel have a strong relation to my life! This is one of those songs. I'll write out the lyrics, and explain how each line relates.
I can see myself tucked in and fast asleep
(The out of body experience I had in my coma)
Looking all peaceful but in my dreams I weep
(I looked peaceful, but inside I was crying for all I lost)
From far up I'm looking down upon myself
(My out of body self looking down at my comatose self...)
And I wonder who it is that's lying there
(And not recognizing myself, because my ego had changed)
I feel like in a world all beside myself
(I didn't know why I was dreaming so much...)
Afraid I won't wake up with no one there to care
(Or whether this would be permanent)
I know someone used to watch me in my sleep
(I knew that a higher power was looking out for me...)
But some things seem just impossible to keep
(I only get one save in life)
I fight hard to bring it back into my mind
(I try to remember the week before...)
But to no use, it all seems to be a blank
(I remember only snippets)
I wonder what it was that had me defined
(I wonder how I got here...)
But one thing I know, I have myself to thank
(But I know it must have been my fault)
I feel like I have amnesia
(I remember only parts of my first 9 years)
But I know it's myself I've lost
(I feel I've lost part of myself)
I wonder what's happened so far
(I don't know the details...)
And what might have been the cost
(Or what the consequences will be)
I'm not sure I want to know
(I don't think I''d like to know...)
Any of the things I've done
(What I did to deserve this)
I don't know yet where to go
(I don't know what my future will be...)
But I'll accept my past is gone
(But I know my past self is gone forever)
I feel like I have amnesia
(I don't remember)
And I've missed the heavenly host
(And I lost my celestial help)
I'm surprised I've come this far
(I'm amazed I'm still alive...)
Living without what I need most
(Living without ??)
I don't think I can go back
(I suspect I'm stuck...)
To the things that were before
(My past is gone)
Though I'm now always wearing black
(Though I mourn the loss of my past self...)
I don't bemoan my life of yore
(I don't regret it)
I wake up and feel like I should be at home
(I awake from the coma, but not home like all else)
But I do not know this, it's not where I belong
(But everyone tells me to stay in hospital)
My head is dazed and my mind is all confused
(I'm confused)
And I'm not quite sure that I'm really there
(I shouldn't be here)
But the mirror shows me looking out, bemused
(The mirror shows a boy looking confused...)
Into a blank place that could be anywhere
(He doesn't recognize where he is)
I feel like I have been left out in the cold
(I feel like I'm left out of the outside world...)
And it hurts to know that this is all my fault
(But it's because of me that I'm here)
I leave this place to find familiar ground
(When discharged, I start recognizing things)
But the whole world seems to have been rearranged
(But it's like a whole new world to me)
Now my former self is nowhere to be found
(My old self is gone)
And I know that it's myself that's changed
(But change is a part of life)