blake. - Behind the Mask EP

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Published on January 22, 2021 3:00:15 PM ● Video Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WI6ka2qJ7pc

Duration: 12:51

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woah - my first ever lo-fi ep and my first ever music ep! this is something that i'd never thought i'd have done, let alone making music that is enjoyable to other people, but here i am, and i want to thank people for supporting me with this and helping me make this ep sound true to lo-fi and to help me produce an ep that could tell a story, and a story that i have experienced in my life;

this story is about autism masking.

throughout your early life, you probably wouldn't notice it, but you'd be doing hobbies, activities or even just doing things or doing actions that the neurotypical would do, and since you may like them, you would continue to do them and it would allow you to fit in with them and working hard as a person (the first two songs).
later as you grow older, you may end up being told by your parents or a doctor that you're diagnosed or can potentially be on the ASD (autism spectrum disorder), meaning that your processes and thoughts are actually much different to the others, and that there may be different things that you enjoy, which can lead to you questioning things in dark times or because you're now starting to show doing things differently, may have people whisper about you or things you do or demeanour you for doing those things, which can cause anxiety tics or the desire to want to cut communications and just run from things or people (songs 3 and 4).
depending on how later you get diagnosed, the worse this can be, as you've been doing these things for the majority of your life and it can make you become emotionless, void of feelings or feel that you're missing a part of you, which can result in you debating whether you actually still enjoy these activities or hobbies, whether you actually achieved or deserved what you've worked for or whether it was all faked just to fit in with the rest of the world, leading you to take in a different perspective or not knowing what to do anymore (the final two songs).

eventually though, you will pull through, and accept whether you do still enjoy these things, or whether you go to find new hobbies or things that you will end up enjoying doing, while getting support from friends and family, and them accepting you for who you are.

tracklist:
a normal life: 0:00
work is what is best: 1:43
it's raining, but it's okay: 3:15
running away is sometimes the only option: 5:55
an unfillable void: 7:30
is anything real?: 9:12
an unfillable void (instrumental): 10:46

download: http://bit.ly/3sE1jHs
soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/user-936961228/sets/behind-the-mask-1
LISTEN ON SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/album/6cUSS9sUNUgD19Sl4awKSJ?si=SEgaHIN9RVS6LKg_lsD7tw&dl_branch=1


individual tracks:
a normal life: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oucdwU4x2To
work is what is best: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NQ68C4Hut4Y
it's raining, but it's okay: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T_LfEyLQmNM
running away is sometimes the only option: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yD6tEI7nvXw
an unfillable void: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5cw0T_f_mUI
is anything real?: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W255Q72I6bI

completely free to use! just credit or share!