Catalyst - I Fret Not (Official Audio)
13This week I released my new EP "The WREN Tape III", and this is one song off the project, which is about the good and bad in life from my personal experiences, enjoy.
Lyrics:
(Intro)
So, I sat down with my therapist, saying how the past year has been great,
But I had to tell her that my mental health has been the worst since 2015,
Where… to cut a long story short I survived a 20 feet jump,
And I don’t wanna lose myself again but… I think I’ve relapsed.
Because I have never felt so lonely, or uncertain, in my entire life.
I’ve lost contact with some friends who choose to ignore me instead of talk,
And I panic… thinking that I’ve done something wrong by disrupting their day.
I see people share their lives online, but I know its a highlight reel.
And whenever things are improving, there’s an incident to spoil the occasion.
Today I was in town when a stranger walking past called me a bender.
Well.. jokes on him for scoring a stunning own goal.
By using a homophobic slur to insult me and my agenda.
Honesty, I haven’t a goal that crazy
Since Andros Townsend’s against Man City.
Once a Yid, forever a Yid,
Unless you sell your soul on a free transfer,
But despite all that, I’m proud of what I’ve achieved, and there is an equal amount of love in this world than there is hatred and neglect.
(Verse 1)
I woke up yesterday morning with a grin on my face,
Only to go back to sleep feeling nothing but disgrace.
Last year I came close to achieving something amazing.
There was a smile in-between although it ended with "Maybe”.
I don’t know what went wrong… Was it my teeth or how I speak?
Ah well… life is tough although there is plenty more in the sea.
And its legit when I say this, I’m saying from experience,
Life with Autism is a curse, I can’t do much about it.
It’s a tag that I accept will be around me forever,
And I hate how I stutter whenever I feel any pressure,
We’re seen as sociopaths and monsters with no guilt,
We’re only human after all: I’ve got a Rag ’N Bone Man to pick,
And fuck you if you use the term “Autistic” as a insult.
But now that I’ve disclosed it to you all, that’s commercial suicide.
‘Cause No blog or record label will want to hear what I provide,
But I fret not, just stand tall and keep your head up high.
(Verse 2)
People say I’m an inspiration but I don’t feel the love,
Especially when I’m ostracised from yet another party.
I see my friends all together, so I call one if I can join, (Brr!)
But its the same bloody excuses over, and over again.
“Oh sorry there’s too many people here” “Oh you’re too much to handle”.
“Why don’t you piss off back to the care home right where you belong?”
I’m speechless on the phone, the rain outside is heavy
though I am still grateful for what I got in life already,
The family’s all good and around me I keep a small circle.
Aye shoutout to UKC for being the best uni in town.
This years Keynestock was crazy with the support I swear!!
Though at times I lack the motivation to even wake up on time,
I’m with a bunch of dope boys yelling nothing but “BRINE!” (Brine)
So I fret not, I thank god for those who see me as a human being.
(Verse 3)
I’m wearing a Tottenham shirt, and nobody’s laughing.
We’re defying expectations but I’m still here relaxing.
I was not expecting a surge in my own self-esteem,
I want more of this, my dad calls me saying “Yes, that’s my son!”
Despite the outcome you should always stay loyal,
Don’t cheat on your lover that’s how ProJared fucked up.
I used to look up to those channels back in 2014,
I made some gaming videos but did a Switch like Nintendo.
I’ve got the same drive for my music in the studio,
While people film themselves popping six benzos.
including Valium, damn that’s a lot to digest.
Mate you seem really proud with next to no regrets.
But I don’t care about that shit, all the xannys, percs, and coke,
And lister-lean with mouthwash is that a bloody sick joke?!
But I fret not, the high and lows are worth it in life.
There’s no need to fear… Stand tall, keep your head up high.
Catalyst – I Fret Not
Recorded – July 15th 2018 to June 12th 2019 at "Wren Boy Studios" in St Albans, and "The Big Brother's Flat" in London, England
Samples - "Dear Future Historians..." by Enter Shikari (2015)
Genre – Hip-Hop, Trap, Alternative,
Writing - Samuel Wren
Production - Samuel Wren
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