Colliding With Mars - AUTISTIC (Lyric Video)
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lyrics:
I need someone to talk to right now
I’m manic in my movements
I’m so self-destructive
Why would god make me this way
If I were her I’d be disgusted
Help me somehow
Kick me around
I hate that I’m so helpless
When I hurt someone
I’m reckless
My behaviors are indefinite
I hate myself
I’m a monster
I want to soft-reset my life
Don’t want to disappoint my father
I think about it every night
Why am I filled with so much hatred
Feel so stupid when I open my mouth
I’m always jaded
Everything is always bringing me down
I’m suffocating
in my thoughts can never figure it out
I’m in a maze
In my own head and now I’m spiraling down
Poison inside of my mind
I can’t
Shake the feeling that I will die
I need to calm down
Or I will lash out
All of these dark thoughts
And I can’t speak now
I thought that I was finished feeling sorry for myself
I’m self-aware that everything I’m saying isn’t gonna help
I fall apart near every day and in my happiness I pray that my condition won’t afflict me further look at where that’s getting me
Tired of waking up
Cutting corners and trading places
With versions of myself I’m
Feeling misguided and out of place like all the damn time
Can’t catch a break, constantly misplacing my own ego
Seconds late and steadily fading I’m losing control
Agitated with knowing