Cry Talks: We stopped being genuine a long time ago

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Published on June 20, 2020 6:04:55 PM ● Video Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H4E5B0-8q2E

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EDIT for clarity: No, I was never with anyone underaged on a physical level. It was all online, but this does not diminish the act - I just know this matters to those who are concerned.



This is a very serious video. I'm not asking for anyone's forgiveness, I just feel this needed to be said before I could finally move on with my life, as well as so many others.


You can't really live life when you're repressing yourself, and I feel like I've held back others as well as myself by just trying to protect my own selfish pride and not admit that I was horrible to others because I had no self-confidence in myself. I took that from them because I was ignorant of my position, because I always believed differently from the actual reality 'oh no this is different'.


No, that's excusing yourself. I was excusing myself and not admitting to myself honestly about how my actions genuinely affected others, and it inhibited so much god damn growth that it isn't fair to anyone. Everyone is hurt by what you do, no matter how much you justify things.



From the smallest thing, we just keep pushing insecurities and cripple self-esteems because we ourselves don't have any either.


I'm so sorry I didn't, and it took me so long to find my own voice in all of this without sitting there trying to find the 'perfect words' like it was some kind of game.



I hope you all have an amazing life, I'll be here doing whatever comes next, but I sincerely hope you guys don't feel held back by others either. People like me, or otherwise.



Unlisted Video mentioned in video here : https://youtu.be/7Lf0_RFFLPQ