Disarray ~ TAKE 2 || - An InterstellarNuggo Original Song
3The themes in this song are of Self-Doubt, and that feeling that everyone is watching and judging you.
Lyrics:
Waking up in the morning.\nGet up, get goin'!
'
Cause today's gonna be a great day!\n-and when I get rollin'\nThe signs start showing...\nThat maybe I'm not okay :[\nAre they judging me?\n'Cause I can't quite see\nCould it possibly be\nMe or somebody else?\nAll good? Okay.\nGot time to play.\nStartin' off my day I'm-\nAlready in Disarray.
All these feelings\ngot me reeling
back and stealing
I'm not healing.
Something tells me\nI'm not helping.\nNot even when I try...
To convince my
brain that I try,\nWhy can't I lie\nto my own mind?
Not that easy.\nPlease just help me.\nWish that I had tried harder...\nWhat am I even doin'?\nAm I even human?\nWhat are they doin' lookin?\nAt me like I'm pooin'?
My reflection in the mirror...\nWould've been the clearer-
thing that made me WEIRDER\nAm I even here?\nMy life has been a big huge gamble-\nof an attempt to struggle and scramble-
words together, to no end.
Never spoken, not a friend
I wish I could've seen me now
and figured my whole life out.\nBack then when the time was right.\nWould've been a pretty sight.\nAll these feelings\ngot me reeling
back and stealing
I'm not healing.\nSomething tells me
I'm not helping.\nNot even when I try...\nTo convince my
brain that I try,\nWhy can't I lie\nto my own mind?\nNot that easy.
Please just help me.\nWish that I had tried harder...\nEveryday is just the same...\nWaking up but still no gain.\nI just wish something would change-\nNever better, Sadder days\nWhy did god decide to try-\nGiving life? Please MAKE ME DIE!\nNever wanted to be here!
Please just go and make it end...
(Wishing for a)\n(Better day so)
(I can soar a-)
(
long the shore...)\n(I wish for a)
(Calming aura)
(Sleep and snore a-)\n(way the dolor...)\n
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Effect author credits:
ItsFullOfStars - Jph Wacheski http://jph_wacheski.itch.io/
Dubswitcher Starburst - Dubswitcher
Polar - Kjell, Dubswitcher
HUD Text - Rado1