I NEEDED to do this.
I didn't want to make a serious video on an otherwise non-serious channel, but I had to do this for my sake. This was weighing on me, for a long while. I said screw it and decided to do this. I messed up horribly, and I wish I could go back to change it, because I destroyed something that was really valuable to me, more valuable than my computer and VR set. I guess I am still processing my emotions, something I am not used to since I've disconnected from them.
Please take care of yourselves, and if you are feeling like you should end it all, please don't. Call or text these numbers if you are in the USA (for anywhere else, please look up the number.)
1-800-273-8255 - National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
Text HOME to 741741 - Crisis Text Line