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This music was born out of my emotion, my hopes, fears, joy and sorrow. I spent a long time trying to convey my feelings into song, yet until now, I couldn't make any true progress.
Senseless Dreaming is a song about me. It may sound prideful, but I don't think I am able to elaborate much further on this platform. I'm not feeling good. I make music to help me focus on something when everything else just isn't okay. This time, I was unsuccessful. While I feel that this music is in a state where it is ready to be published, I don't feel any better than I did before. I feel isolated, heavy, and often wish I could tear my hair out and scream, wail like a banshee. I no longer have the ability to cry when feel sad. I no longer smile when I'm happy. I'm alive, but I don't think of it as living. I just think of it as static. Breathing, eating, sleeping, but unchanging.
I'm beyond the point of caring about my own self. As long as I can make something for others, even if it's just a short song, a silly video, then that gives me a reason to keep going. I am a senseless dreamer, and I dream of the day to come. Even unchanging, I don't mind. Just let me keep going, because I'm more than capable of enduring.

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