Symbolics are their own math, truly.
So you gotta figure this sh!t out, gotta do with the ego too.
BUT, as i said, take the ego stuff i say with a grain of salt.
What if... Ego is the real you but it is the cosmos, the earth that is the issue.
If you are never denied your desires, than it would be heaven, wouldn't it?
And funny enough, jesus calls the earth a bad place, where walking on water is miraculous.
But it wouldn't be a miracle in heaven, anyone can do it.
So than it comes down to ego vs a bad shit crazy earth and laws of physics that constrain you.
And if you are ignorant, blind, than the ego is confused, or reduced to whatever the environment tells you.
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