Toxikk Deception - Childhood Trauma (Halperidol)
3Toxikk Deception
"C H I L D H O O D T R A U M A"
(Halperidol Mix)
All vocals by Violet Mallory
All music produced by Violet Mallory
Written, composed and engineered by Violet Mallory
Lyrics:
No innocence
No light
They all told me their fucking lies
2 doses a day
to subside the pain
Are the side effects
worth the help you'll gain?
They never told me
their house is a game
All of these chemicals
will ROT my brain
3 months 2 hours in
I can hear my thoughts
penetrating from within
My eyes are rolling
to the back of my skull
My jaw is locked
and my joints are numb
PLEASE HELP ME
JUST HELP ME
I'm not crazy, these symptoms are real
Why wont my family save me
It looks like I've no future
I FEEL DEAD TO THE WORLD
(to the world)
In horror I watch
as I chew my fingernail
off the nailbed
Theres something wrong
with the chemicals they administered
to my head
I went to the hospital
and the doctors wont
tell me anything
I asked for a remedy
but they didn't care
like they didn't see
"Come back again one day when you're not faking your misery."
Another year passes
Another year wasted
Another year trapped
in this fucking hole
Tranquilized,
labotomized,
silenced and sedated
One day you'll see
how much they damaged me
4 years in the bin
all for childhood sin
The sun is black
The sky is white
I feel there's nothing left to life
It's all done
It's all over
The storm has passed
The night is colder
THERE IS NO JOY
THERE IS NO PAIN
THERE IS NO URGE
TO FEEL AGAIN
There is no joy, there is no pain. I have no urge to feel again, to feel again.
All trauma produced by Acadia Hospital (Now its Northern Light Hospital), Easter Seals (in New Hampshire) and Stetson Ranch Residential, who above all else were supposed to help.
Let me tell you a story. A little personal story, based on real shit that happened to me. The psychotropic/antidepressants/antipsychotic medications they perscribe are literally population control substances... They are legit a labotamy in a pill. They are DESIGNED to shut down areas of your brain permanently if taken long term. I was put on 2 MG of Halperidol (Haldol) 3 times a day for a while. I recently researched Haldol. They used to be used as HORSE TRANQUILIZERS. I was in a hospital as a teen and they would strap me to a bed for days and pump me full of this shit called Haldol and who knows what else. They did it like every few days against my will. I was only in there for threatening suicide too, not even an actual attempt. Jesus Christ, I was fucking 14. It's like it doesnt matter in psyche wards. It's like jail. If you're in there it doesnt matter what or who you are or how old you are. To them you're just crazy. Afterwards, when i got out, like a year later, a whole year in a psyche ward they prescribed them in pill form. After only three months of taking the medication I ended up in the regular medical hospital because of bad side effects. Drug induced seizures. Ocular-gyric crisis. Acute dystonia. Lock jaw. Panic attacks. Trouble breathing. The seizures were the worst. The doctors kept lying to me every time I would go, telling me I was faking it, telling me they didn't know what was wrong. My family would listen to me, and only would believe the doctors because I was mentally ill. But the doctors knew. It was the SHIT they were poisoning me with. After three years of visits to the ER, they decided to take me off of the meds. I felt better a week after that. But every once in a while I get flashbacks. Of people sticking needles in me and not being able to breathe properly. And I dont know if they will ever leave me. I am making it my life goal to expose the mental health industry for the horrifying
Mistreatment and malpractice they perform EVERYDAY. Someday something will be done. At least the hospitals in the area, somebody has to end up in a hole in the end and I will not stop until Acadia Hospital is shut down. Someday...
These are truely the monsters in the dark.
https://www.facebook.com/NorthernLightAcadiaHospital/