Update: just a small Update on how I'm feeling and what's going on at the moment
3Yup, I decided to make this video to let you all know, my viewers/subscribers what's going on, It is just a short video. I explain that I am quite nervous about being put on medication, I received quite a lot of letters by the ''Early Intervention Team'' I don't just think I'll be put on ''anti'' depressants, probably be a bit more than that since I hallucinate a lot more than I previously did, I do get delusional. I feel like I have been ''abducted'' by something or someone, like aliens. I get visions, wake up at random times and so on. Sounds more like a psychological problem. I am trying to get a grip on reality but I really do feel like I'm loosing hope. However I am alive, still and I made another video, which is a good sign. When I make videos it gives me a little bit of sanity.