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one of the many things i have given much thought to has been when and if ill ever tell my parents i am bisexual, i didnt actually become bisexual until i was 32 years old, which was 2 years after my divorce, that being said ive been alone since my divorce, i havent been with anyone since my divorce, ive tried asking women out but no luck, and ive avoided asking out anyone that would constitute a "gay"relationship mainly because i just havent had the opportunity to meet any such people & i am very withdrawn work alot and in general nervous about relationships, i dont want to just hook up with random people, wether its a guy girl or futa, i want it to be someone i feel comfortable with and can trust, ive had a lot of bad experiences in previous relationships too and ive been both traumatized and had my heart broken. but yea what if were to meet a bishounen or a futanari that i wanted to have a relationship with and basically be best friends with benefits lol, i value emotional connections, i just want someone to love and care about me and respect me and accept me, also i like cock, but if i were to meet a cute futa and she were a really nice person and we both really liked eachother would my parents be happy i was with someone who cared about me and was nice to me, i just want a healthy loving relationship, its not like me being bisexual defines me as a person, im still the same person whether i date a woman or a man or a futanari, i wouldnt want my family or friends or society to view me any differently, i am me regardless of who i am dating or in love with

i love my Mother very much, in fact the two people i love the most in this world are my Mother and my Son, i cant say i love my Dad, its complicated, i dont wish any illwill or disrespect to him, i respect him, but we havent exactly gotten along the best nor have we spent time together in any capacity other than work or church, he isnt much of a talker to anyone, and when he does say something to me its about church or work or something being wrong with me, i cant remember him saying a single nice thing to me, ever, i dont blame him or hate him, and i do respect him, he is extremely religious, which i am too, i believe very strongly in God, but ive always held the view that logic and kindness should dictate what is morally right, he however is very adherent to doing whatever the CHURCH deems seemly, i actually worry that if i were to admit to him i am bisexual that he would MURDER on the spot, i think the best i could hope for is him wanting me to go the church to get prayed over and get an exorcism, I AM NOT GAY TO OFFEND MY PARENTS OR REBEL AGAINST GOD I JUST WANT TO BE IN A LOVING HAPPY REALTIONSHIP I AM EXTREMELY DEPRESSED AND LONELY AND HURTING AND I JUST WANT A LOVING CUTE ATTRACTIVE BEAUTIFUL PARTNER WHO IS NICE TO ME AND DOESNT YELL AT ME OR TREAT ME BADLY, I JUST WANT TO BE LOVED AND CARED ABOUT, AND YES I LIKE COCK, I AM BISEXUAL I LIKE MEN AND WOMEN BUT HAVE A PREFERENCE FOR WOMEN, HECK IF I COULD DATE SHYLILY OR LINECHU I WOULD, YES I HAD TO MAKE A VTUBER REFERENCE, MY SENSE OF HUMOR HAS TO SHOW UP SOMEHOW, AND NO I DONT ACTUALLY THINK EITHER OF THEM WOULD EVER BE INTERESTED IN ME IN ANY WAY SHAPE OR FORM BUT I THINK THEY ARE CUTE AND HAVE INTERESTING PERSONALITIES I LAUGH AT THEIR VIDEOS AND THEY ARE PEOPLE ALL YOU INTERNET DENIZENS WOULD BE FAMILIAR WITH, BUT YEA I LIKE COCK AND PUSSY EQUALLY, THOUGH I AM A BIT PUT OFF OF VAGINAS: I THINK SUBCONSCIOUSLY I RELATE THAT TO MY EXWIFE, I HAD BAD EXPIERENCES AND I AM OVERLY SENSITIVE AND BETWEEN MY BROKEN HEART AND MY OVERLY PARANOID SUICIDAL MIND I HAVE MAYBE A TINY AVERSION BUILT OFF OF TRAUMAS, BUT ME LIKING COCK AND WANTING TO SUCK COCK AND RIDE COCK DOESNT MAKE ME A BAD PERSON, ME BEING ATTRACTED TO BOTH GENDERS DOESNT MAKE ME A MONSTER OR A MURDERER OR HITLER, I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY, I WANT HUGS AND AFFECTION AND TO BE TOLD THAT IM APPRECIATED AND LOVED, IM LONELY, I WANT SOMEONE I CAN FEEL SAFE WITH AND WHO IS KIND TO ME AND ACTUALLY CARES ABOUT MY THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS, YES I BASICALLY WANT A BIG TITTY SHYLILY WITH BIG DICK TO BE MY SWEET DOTING GIRLFRIEND, and side note Shylily should you ever read this, i apologize if this makes you uncomfortable, i just think you are pretty and well i needed an example, BUT YEA I JUST WANT TO BE LOVED AND CARED ABOUT

but yea, I love my Mom very much, i dont really expect my Dad to accept me, but I REALLY WANT MY MOM TO ACCEPT ME IF I EVER TELL HER, i love my MOM, she is far from perfect but i wouldnt trade her for any other mother, she did the best she could, she has treated me with respect and love, she has helped me with things throughout my life, she has been there for me, i would sit and talk to her when she cooked dinner, i enjoyed playing super mario 1 super mario 3 dragon spirit robowarrior spyro and crash bandicoot with her, i visit her couple times a month to play BattleShip.
I just want her to accept me, i dont want her to say she hates me