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âI never said RIP because it took too long for me to processâŚnever needed to say it publicly eitherâŚeven if I knew things I still grievedâŚI would think about you non stop when I played Xenoblade Chronicles Definitive Edition & Xenoblade X. I would jump from the highest tree in Makna Forest to just see if I could grasp that dayâŚI donât know why you misled me but maybe you saw me as money too? You paid me back so probably not. Doesnât matter, I still miss you. Wish I could have cleared things up and told you it was Gian the whole time who said things. Even if I used myself to see how youâd react I just wanted to see if you were really doing âbadâ things that I was kept out of the loop on. You just seemed to defend Gian on everything. Didnât make sense so didnât know if you had the same mindset as him. Gian himself said everybody does itâŚwere you also everybody? I donât know but maybe Iâll get the answers soon. Why did my dad say he thinks you arenât dead? Sorry I used myself as a scapegoat in our last callâŚyou and Gian just seemed cliquey and if I told you what he said I donât think you would have ever believed me. Oh well. My conscience feels fine though with doing it, if anything it gave me some relief.â
âLying is a survival instinctâ - Etika NY 2019
âWhy did he say all these thingsâŚhim quoting someone saying âdawgâ actually sounded like something Gian would have said so maybe Gian tried to prevent him from doing something bad too? Iâm just saying, that was Gianâs lingo like how my dads lingo is âbuddyââ