Game:

Final Fantasy IX (2000)

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Walkthrough

Duration: 16:03

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Whoever has the gold, makes the rules? :)

I'm not quite sure how to start this since it's been like a month since I uploaded and more like a month and a half since I recorded. First and foremost, this walkthrough is going to be finished! No way I'd stop now.

I have so much going on in my head right now. I was debating putting up an update video but I think I'll just talk about it more in another video. Life just has me so busy and just so confused. I'm trying to organize the thoughts in my head and I just can't do it. I just know I have someone mad at me and regardless of whether I think the anger is justified, I feel sorry. At the same time, I think I finally started seeing things the way I should be. I think I have a better idea of what I'm looking for, but I feel like fear still has this vice grip over me to some extent: the fear that my efforts will lead me exactly to where I am right now, and I don't want that. At the same time, how can you truly claim to be alive if you're afraid to do something that might make you happy?

It's a confusing time. There are times when I'm trying to decide if the reason I don't feel like getting out of bed is because I'm tired or if life has me down. Sometimes I'll stay up all night just watching video clips trying to shake myself out of this feeling, one that I imagine is similar to a Dementor from Harry Potter just hovering in the room with you. I always find it remarkable how alone one can feel while not truly being alone.

Girls confuse the heck out of me. I think I've always been pretty good at picking up when someone likes someone I know, but I have no clue if anyone actually likes me. I started thinking the reason I've never been able to pick up on it is because that scenario just flat out never happens anymore. My roommate seems to think otherwise though. He's convinced a lot more people like me than I seem to realize and I just don't pick up on any of it. I just don't know. Am I actually leading girls on and not realizing it? Am I that type of person?

I think the worst part is how rejection always seems to make you think "what's wrong with me?" Sure, when you're feeling good you can say "they don't know what they're missing", but somehow that first phrase always seems to pop back up when you feel most vulnerable. It's like mental torture.

I wish people could just be more honest about emotions with one another. I for one, am terrible at talking about emotions or even descrbing them in a semi-coherent fashion (see above paragraphs as proof). If a girl likes me, I wish she had the courage to just say it, because in the end I want to know what she sees so I can share those feelings too. I try my hardest to return the favor, but sometimes mended hearts are just afraid to be broken again so soon.

Anyways, that's pretty much all I can say before this video finishes uplaoding and it goes live. In today's episode we obtain the Golden Chocobo ability to fly into the sky, visit Chocobo's Paradise, and visit Chocobo's air garden. I try to find the final four Chocographs in the air garden, but I fail. I actually played for 2 hours after and didn't dig up ONE Chocograph the whole time. That's probably why I stopped playing for a bit. I'm so frustrated with Hot N Cold. Maybe it's because it's secretly a metaphor for other things in my life, but more likely because that mini game can be just so darn frustrating!

If you want to follow me on facebook, be sure to do that since chances are if I have an update it'll go there. I might just skip Chocograph hunting all together for now and just move on with the story since that's what I really want to do. I have no idea.

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Previous episode: part 77
http://youtu.be/WluMWKaySHo

Next episode: part 79
http://youtu.be/Asa4FJQYd3E

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