GTA 5 Mods Tesla Model S

Channel:

taltigolt

Subscribers:

213,000

Published on February 3, 2016 1:47:34 PM ● Video Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U3hvt3PsNWQ

Game:

Grand Theft Auto V (2013)

Duration: 5:47

25,925 views

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mod by dreamsky
https://www.gta5-mods.com/vehicles/2014-tesla-model-s-10567b91-8508-41c0-a8ce-38e477a49015

so today has been well bad i tried to be happy i really did after the overwhelming support from people caring so much i felt bad about being sad so i tried, after i released that former video everything sortof wen't to shit well it received more support than negativity but as a whole i am ashamed about it, as for patreon you keep asking me and i am still undecided because i don't know if i deserve it, i'm not perfect as i've said so so many times, you want me to be happy and just for that i try, the thing with patreon heres some honesty it wouldn't be enough and i would use that money for temp happiness it wouldn't help me and i wouldn't be able to with a good consience spend it, i'd use that type of money to buy things that would make me happy for a little like maybe the new xperia z5 premium something i not at all need, i wouldn't be responsible with money like that, only way it truly would help is if it ended up at 5000-10 000 monthly and i will never ask that from anyone then i'd have a true use for it i could move out i could travel i could TRY and repair my life but even then i couldn't promise i wouldn't be sad, and i'd feel guilty about that i already feel guilty for being sad as a whole knowing people want me to be happy, after that video it sortof destroyed me i realized i ruined so much by posting it people likely lost respect in me etc, i am a whiner and i always will be as life will never get better some people just can't be saved and i believe i am one of those people i've been used too much by too many the damage is too great to get over it and thats just one out of so many other things, i noticed in my twitter that i had spoken to that guy jobless gamers he asked me to do a "collab" so i said sure but i need to get my life and channel back together and guess what when i read our conversation i noticed he isn't even following me any more, so many people just do this to me so many people that has everything even that guy kwebbelkop followed me and subscribed to me both of which gone, that guy jelly i helped him alot too he blocked me when i asked him for help i asked him to retweet something and i said it feels weird asking for help and that he can say no i got unfollowed and blocked as if a no wouldn't have sufficed, and they have everything they have EVERYTHING, the ironic thing of it all i was in contact with rockstar games years ago like 2011 or something i told the guy i was in contact with how my dream and goal was to become the biggest mod showcaser and look at me now i am at the bottom people such as typical gamer (who i have nothing against) destroyed everything i ever worked for so many other people did the same my dream is now the same type of dream as becoming the president of the united states, back then it wasn't impossible as i was alone i felt proud of what i had accomplished.

nevertheless i will try to keep whining to a minimum as my channel is the only good thing left in my life and i should not mess with that, and i feel guilty about being sad now, and again i apreeciate it so much that you cared it made me feel so good but then i ruined that by posting that video, i wish i was different as being this open makes me ashamed so ashamed

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