How My LIfe Was SAVED
29jesus saves he saved me!
From 2021-2023 I had alot of trolls bully me and defame me and I felt all alone during that time period And things are getting betterAlot of bad people slandered me and that's why I don't have people watching like I used to It hurt like aton Luckily it was all proven false, by other people, and me, but the damage was still done, my rep was ruined and damagedDuring both 2022 and 2023 I tried killing my self cause I felt alone in the situation and it hurt aton it felt like all of my irl friends that I used to hang out with didn't hang out with me anymore and people ghosted me alot. It hurt alot the fact that when I needed them most they vanished, and I felt betrayed, I felt all alone and was dealing with ptsd, then my grandad passed away in 2024 and I found out he was a hard believer in God Jesus and his faith, I loved the story the pastor told about grandaddy "in ww2 there was a tank that exploded his groups building, my grandad prayed and prayed and prayed, he prayed so hard he passed out, when he came to he was alive and so were his squad mates," and that story made me realize God is real, I fell put of touch with God for the longest time cause during high-school last year of Montreat, the boys in my grade decided to plan a harrasment thing where they sexually harrassed me, and then one of them said " were just fucking with you, emotionally and physically" and some of them mooned me, some people may say it's boys being boys, but I wasn't there to get bullied, I was there to be closer to God, and make new friends, and my parents always said that I was alot better behaved and happier, when I came home from Montreat, not that year, that year I almost killed my self I had felt betrayed, disgusted, and hurt that my close friends I thought cared for me and were my homies betrayed my trust, and I felt betrayed by god, "how could followers of christ do that to me a fellow follower of christ" "i was there to get closer to god!!!" I felt so alone that I told the youth leader I wanted to kill my self, I was so destroyed that people I considered my closest friends did that to me, for the longest time after that I didn't pray, I didn't believe and I didn't go to church, I was so lost I didn't know what to do, I started going down bad paths and wierd rabbit holes, it all came to a head twice when I tried killing my self, both years 2022 and 2023, I was truly lost I felt like if God wasn't here for me who was, and alot of friends were ghosting me and busy, some even used me, I used to be a huge believer in God, I kept asking my self what happened, then after I heard grandaddy story, it hit me, and I started praying again, I asked my dad to take me to some of the church services and so he did, and it was a life changing event, for me, hearing the music being played hearing everyone sing together in the audience was so powerful, and i cried i cried so hard but so soft that it wasnt noticble, i realized GOD WAS REAL AND HE WAs THERE FOR ME, those people that hurt me werent of god or at least they werent truly listening to god, and then my dad told me to check out next steps and see If I wanted to do it, I said yes, and it's the best thing that ever happened to me, I get to volunteer with seacoast and everyone is so nice and understanding of me, also shortly after the church service I went to I streamed and it was my most popular stream, 6k viewers thank God! My subs also grew as well! God is real he does care you just have to truly listen and believe! He loves you he loves me he loves us! I was truly saved by god and I felt compelled to share this story, love you all and love you god and Jesus amen.