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I wrote this song around Spring 2014 to express my simultaneous feelings of frustration with people generically asking me how I am and appreciation that these people care about me.

I'm not very good at recording stuff and my computer mic isn't very good, so I sung it on my phone while walking around at night. I apologize for any cars or other noises you may hear and for the lack of interesting video.

~ LYRICS ~

Could you stop asking me if I’m okay?
I’m sick of giving you these formalities.
Yeah, I’m good. I’m fine. How are you?
I’m great. I’m alright. What is new?

So then you say that you really mean it.
You really want to know how I’ve been.
But I am tired of trying to explain it
When next week you’ll make me do it again.

I’m not really okay, but I’m here… today.
I’m not walking away from my life, and hey,
I truly appreciate that you care for me.
You don’t have to go…
I just want you to know…

It’s in the past for me, but in what way?
The past continues into the present day.
Yeah, time flows… one way… pulling me.
One's hope… cannot break… reality.

Yeah, it’s unhealthy to remain bitter
At life or love or times that you had.
But I can’t cover life up with glitter.
I understand both the good and the bad.

I’m not really okay, but I’m here… today.
I’m not walking away from my life, and hey,
I truly appreciate that you care for me.
You don’t have to go…
I just want you to know…

I’m here.
I’m still here.
I’m happy I’m still here.

I’m here.
I’m still here.
I’m happy I’m still here.

I’m surviving…
For as long as I can…
And as well I can…

You’re here.
You’re still here.
I’m happy you’re still here.

I’m not really okay, but I’m here… today.
I’m not walking away from my life, and hey,
I truly appreciate that you care for me.
But when you ask me if I’m okay…
I just want you to know…

I’m here.
I’m still here.
I’m happy... I’m still here...