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Let's Play

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i made a 2 plus hour long video where i spent more than half of it playing this game blind, its a good horror game but i was very slow at doing anything, its a good game but im not entertaining to play it, i then spent 20 minutes reading the descriptions of various hentai games on steam, then spent 20 minutes of playing trolley problem inc. it was extremely boring and way too preachy, in general the video was far too boring even by my standards, so i deleted it, but i thought the title music was cool, has anyone ever listened to Myuu? im wanting to start doing shorter videos and with an interest of making them more interesting, granted im still against ever monetizing my channel, this is just a hobby, after all i primarily started this channel cause not only do i love lets plays but im lonely and need people to talk to and its nice to have a place to talk without a filter and just be myself and just relax, i mainly make the videos for myself, but if you all enjoy them that is a nice bonus, i think a couple dozen videos ago i had to start admitting im wanting the videos to be good and something people would enjoy, im not entirely sure where my motivations lay? i guess we will settle with it being i am a horrible evil person and i will go to hell cause im bisexual and everyone irl hates me and im a failure at everything in life and even the dumb hobby i started as a way of not being alone and trying not to feel worthless or meaningless with an emphasis on my not having any pressure on me and just doing whatever im starting to pressure on myself lol how ironic...wait what a PALPATINE joke how corny can i be? haha but yea im guess im dumb but i just have a need to talk about things, i should write scripts? i mean yes itd be more concise and coherent but i hate being bound by that kind of structure, i just want to talk and let my thoughts pore out, screw organizing them, i finally have a week plus off from work for christmas, so ill finally get some sleep, ive just been exhausted, also merry christmas everyone :) maybe ill get around to making that Vtuber model? granted i doubt ill ever do live streams with it, im too anti social for that, but maybe i could use it for singing "good" audio my voice only covers of songs? heck i want to learn german and japanese still and sing songs in those languages, that could be a lot of fun! yay other than that maybe ill make a playlist series where i discuss bible and religious things? with an interest in being open minded and accepting of everyone regardless of what faith they are? all faiths and atheists just having a civil conversation where we are all friends having a fun polite conversation where no one is trying to force their view on eachother we just discuss calmly and cordially our feeling and thoughts. that would be great. could also discuss history of the world and of all countries even ones that are long gone, like ancient persia, or egypt, or what the childhood of Abraham was probably like and what his parents were like & what kind of books he would have read, what to do for fun, what for work, what he was taught about right & wrong as a child & as an adult, what he knew about God and what his parents & grandparents knew and believed? my purpose of making those videos wont be to be judgemental or preachy, i just want a kind candid conversation where everyone is nice to eachother & respects eachother regardless of background. i think ill call the list of videos " WHY GAY SEX IN HEAVEN IS OKAY " point being i am both a Believer in GOD & Jesus & believe the God of Abraham is the creator of the universe & that everything that happened in the bible is true, but im also bisexual & i think there is nothing morally wrong with people being gay. also what do people expect in heaven? if fundamentalism is taken to the resultant inference then its a place with no hugs or cuddles or videogames or good food or naps or orgasms or sex of anykind also you cant express anger or sadness. ..if all these things are considered bad then why would they be allowed in heaven? i hold that the creator of the universe that is an unknowably large number of years old to the point the concept is meaningless who created a universe so vast of more than 200trillion galaxies & a microscopic world that is just as complex and vast wouldnt create billions of sentient beings just to be put them in an unfair system to then torture them for eternity, that doesnt seem logical or anything but sadistic, & trust me ive spent tens of thousands of hours contemplating everyway a human could be ripped apart, even as a small child i thought about that stuff, i thought about everything, im not saying im smart or a know it all, im not, i also tend to be forgetful & easily distracted, but i have an obsessive & addictive personality, rules system set up in Bible is about Efficiency not ethics, about making a nation powerful, besides if im going to hell for being bi then im also going for eating bacon & drinking pepsi