playing a game as if i have never been a content creator in this life (but still with real humanity)

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Published on March 20, 2024 8:57:54 AM ● Video Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RYqp1Htizfs

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PAC-MAN WORLD Re-PAC (2022)

Duration: 38:00

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never, NEVER EVER wish for that you never existed, my friend. i know you may want a simple or normal life, and otherwise struggle to avoid having a simple and normal life because you so badly want to prove that exceptionality can still be a good thing. but see here's the thing: it's not that nobody is unique, but that you should never use it as escapism from a reality that can be SHARED. that is why it's a blessing that ALL OF YOU were born!

and so, you do indeed see me "simply" play this rebooted video game peacefully and quietly, as if there never was a philosopher or cartoonist named Tony Cashman. why do i recollect my favorite all-time online flash games - by example - as if i can never have personal preferences BY DEFAULT for ANYTHING in this whole life, be it a disdain for the idea of "preferences" by the by as yours truly's philosophies? why do those free flash games - by design - remind me that instead of oversimplifying why i didnt just Tasslefoot style purchase $15 games from the gaming store in the mid-2000-2010s, I HAD TO BE A PHILOSOPHER AND A BEAUTIFUL THINKER????

these are not the thoughts of a scatterbrained artist. nor is it the overcomplication of a procrastinator. i play pac man world one re-pac remake, and sure, i chill out quietly and dont say a word for half a hour at minimum. but beyond staying quiet for my locals and making extra non-original content for backup's sake before i return to yes original claymation and VTubing as well for Amelia Rules! comic book reads, i know i am more interesting than i make out to be on purpose OR accident.

so next time you see me act out of character for my own uniqueness's sake and realize that every single interesting thing i say that hardly adds up to how i seem to perceive or experience life itself every time i surprise anyone else other than myself, let it not add up to this Pac-Man World 1 Re-Pac session alone. i am trying. i am struggling. i am being myself, authentically.

and i dont care if that means i have to stay confused and troubled for the rest of my life. because at least i get to pass away being THE Tony Cashman for the next many decades to come. you dont understand as Jessie Syndrome, or Gertrude Dentist, or Harold Bionicle, as hes not YOU.

but if you see this so-called Tony Cashman in real life, even if he comes onto you wayyyyyyyyy too strongly and compassionately and invades your boundaries if that of a person seemingly trying to have something to prove (while still being inappropriate nonetheless lol), please let him off the hook and give him a chance. most people hardly try to trust him or be vulnerable around him. but Tony Cashman, the very brave one young man within this world, will show you that it doesnt have to be this way.

so, if you happen to be Brom Versatility, Cheshire Omelet or Phoebe Bridgers (SORRY MACKENA ROFL), that is the world your dear Tony C. occupies. it is not an easy world, and it is by far not the most ideal. but a lot of it can still be pleasant and meaningful, as we create our own magic here.

please do not give up. owe it to yourself that sometimes in the weirdest crevices on the sidewalk, flowers can still bloom, nihilist individual or not.

because i myself choose to care and create my own meaning IN SPITE of inherent meaning. i discern what i listen to, no matter who is literally right.

and most importantly, i live as a human being that does not have to worry about being alone. i love me, but i do love people obviously. extroverted multitasking be damned, because im going to be dating myself tenfold for a time lol. & thats assuming i blossom more in like the mid-2040-50s haha

the best thing is and ideal, and the right thing is a promise.
thank you for watching, then listening when i finally did speak up all video.

and sorry for the audio issues when i did unmute, that warrants three minutes towards to end card for sure xD

-Tony Cashman forever, which is a long... long time unless im on my side :_)

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