"THE REASON I MAKE THESE POSTS"
139"People THOUGHT they knew why I was doing all this but in reality no one knew. It's really this simple. I confronted most people privately on these situations and they either falsely accused me or tried to gaslight me and lie to me on things I actually have screenshots from. Stress is the number 1 killer and I would have far less mental illnesses (probably just autism and depression only) if friends and family hadn't tried to screw me over for years. I have no reason to lie or slander people willingly (schizophrenia has led to some delusions but I have not doubled down on them here. Schizophrenia/psychosis has actually caused me to slander even MYSELF as well in private relationships and in public as well solely due to the fact the voices threatened to kill my sisters or harm my family and I was willing to slander myself out of duress on the sole fact I did not want them beheaded, tortured, r**ed, etc) not to mention I'm not making money off of any of this and I'm actually losing subscribers. I am just tired of being gaslit to my face by absolutely everyone and this verse in the bible is why I record this audio and post these screenshots. Clearly people double down on their lies against me so I actually appreciate that because God says slanderers will not go to Heaven and I care about that more than anything. My 'flesh' actually wants to go an entirely different route but I'm not allowed to do that and sometimes I want to curse out God for all these setups and manipulation against me from the people I knew but I have to hold my tongue. I just wish these voices in psychosis never told me I had to sell my soul to the devil in order to protect my sisters and family from being murdered or tortured because all that caused me to spiral into my first psychosis and I was told/commanded that I must be the 'Lamb' in Revelations 13 that had the tongue of a dragon if I wanted them to live...that was why my first episode was so intense because i was blackmailed by the voices to cut my chest deeply with a knife as a form of sacrifice to the devil and that since Etika was the antichrist according to him in his psychosis episode i would have to be the foul mouthed Lamb. Revelations 13 also occurs after Revelations 9 so this led me to believe that over a third of mankind had been wiped out already and the voices in my psychosis told me the people on earth were all clones in reality and not real humans meaning that they were literally vessels for 'familiar' spirits (Almost like Xenoblade X's ending where the characters you play aren't real because everyone was dead and the silver haired girl in that game was in reality just an alien (aka demon) underground with her personality uploaded to the bodies that you play in the game). It's really frustrating too because after the whole ordeal from the first psychosis episode I had a mini stroke from all the stress of taking these commands from voices that I thought were top rank officials in the intelligence agencies that I thought were satanist as well. Psychosis is truly a curse I would wish on no one but in a way I sometimes want to hope it does happen to the people who wronged me but that would be a sin...hey at least the actual people who wronged me will lie and not admit how they set me up so maybe the Berserk Eclipse will await them in just a few more decades. Years go by faster as you get older so their day will come soon..."
"Raqib misled me all of 2016. Remember this."
"GCPM11 tried to push illegal activity I slapped him for in early 2018 but he misled me in other ways afterwards that I was fully oblivious to. I have autism after all and I was homeschooled from 5-16 (didn't finish last two years of school) so things I'm naive on im gullible to but things I did know I wouldn't let him mislead me on."