Update 30-04-16... [A.K.A... Ellipsis rants about nothing important]
0I am in a bad mood... I am so sick and tired of it all...
I'm pissed... I'm depressed... Just bare with me for a moment and let me yell into the void that is my channel...
I slave over a map... 24/7... Literal blood, sweat, and tears the foundation for the map... And in the end, no one fucking cares... It is not Minecraft... it is not Five nights at Who-Fucking-Cares... It is not some hackjob port... and it is not just another fucking mod that just swaps one model for another...
I choose to maintain my integrity... and I am rewarded with nothing... Literal nothing... I refuse to stoop to that level... I will not make a map that rides on the fucking coat tales of something else... I won't do it... And because of this primal hatred... I am at an indefinite disadvantage towards those that have no shame... no sense of integrity... no fucking sense of self...
I am in a constant Identity crisis... I want to stay who I am... Be proud of my work... Have people love and cheer it on because it is my work... ALL my work... My hard fucking work...
But that constant need to stay individual at all cost has costed me so much...
I could become just another generic face to the pile... Emotionless with no standout features...
Start streaming on a semi-daily basis... Wear a tanktop and make sure the facecam is more of a boobcam... Make gameplay videos of “NEW” games like everyone else... and Just full fucking clickbaiting bullshit like everyone else... (I am willing to bet fucking money... One of the videos to the right has an all caps Title... Tell me I am wrong...)
I very well could... I possess the power to use my powers for pure fucking evil... but I am who I am... I am Ellipsis... I am Alvira... I am not just another fucking personality-less sponges that shits soulless tosh on a daily basis... But in being Alvira... No one cares... Because those fucking sponges just soak in all of everything don't they?... All the attention... All the glory... All the purpose...
I am not complaining about my view count... I appreciate those that watch my content...
You people are my family... and I love you all... I really do... But it is hard to stay motivated to do anything when you spend so long working your ass off... only to be out shown by someone doing bare minimum effort... and being rewarded for being such talentless, fucking cock-swaddling hacks!...
I am not changing who I am... As a matter in fact... I am more comfortable with who I am now than I ever have been in all my life...
I have friends... I have fans... I have a lover... All because of who I am...
So what was the point of all of this?...
I've been depressed... Borderline suicidal even... Two years now...
But thanks to Rofls... Thanks to Maddi... Thanks to all of you that are still here... I am back in the light... I'm back...
Alvira is back... and She is not going fucking anywhere...
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