Vent - Timelapse/Speedpainting #clipstudiopaint #timelapse #vent #ventart #speedpainting #myself

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Published on March 19, 2023 8:43:52 PM ● Video Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JYnH6BiQYu4

Game:

Timelapse (1996)

Duration: 2:41

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Music: https://youtu.be/GF52rUyMTiQ
Program for painting: Clip Studio Paint X
Editing Program for the video: Adobe Premiere Pro (2020)
Original idea: https://www.pinterest.com.mx/pin/674132637987799483/

Is life really worth living for?

I mean... what's the point if you're living in a world that within years has become far from terrible and is just... beyond repair?

Why do bad people exist making the world what it is from the day the human kind started existing to the present we live today? Why do they want to take over our lives, our freedom, our happiness, our.... everything?.... Why do they consider their plans and finances are way more important than the rest of the human kind? Are we less important to even exist?

I cannot feel safe in such an evil world.

I hate this world. I hate it because of bad people who would do anything to always win any battle and always blaming the innocent ones in any way possible. Because there are people who I cannot count on or trust. Because I am anxious if I'll continue to be alive. Because the bad always wins. Because none feels safe. Because bad people cut off or burn our wings we've spread from the day, we finished school in any way possible. Because the bad people are afraid of hearing the other side of the story and they think they are the only ones who are right and the other side is wrong. Because the bad people always blame others expect of themselves. Because I cannot love myself in such a cruel world. Because I have a hard time trying to fit in this society. Because I am considered "beyond repair" because of my strange behaviour that results from the trauma I got from awful events I've never asked for. Because I cannot trust easily anymore. Because I had lost everything. Because I had to mostly work on my own, while even the people who turned out to be toxic to me had someone to help them out when they needed something (regardless of trying to hide what they've done in the past or act like they were never at fault for anything and they blamed everyone else expect of themselves). Because I have to hide who I am. Because I have to always try harder to get what I want and achieve my goals while someone bad, will get what they want or achieve their goals from the moment they'll ask for it without having as much hard time as I do. Because I feel insecure about myself as a person, as a woman, as a content creator, as a student, as everything.... because I look myself into the mirror and I spot imperfections on my face. Because it was hard for me to trust some certain people to be my friends due to what I've gone through in the past. Because bad people think only one side of the story exists and when the other side speaks up, they do whatever it takes to take them down. Because there are people who do not accept people like me. Because it's hard to even trust myself. Because I feel small. Because the bad people think abusive behaviour, toxicity and such are okay while they're not. Because grudges and jealousy are always after us.

Because of how monstrous the world has become from the past, to this day!....

And the list goes on.

Fun fact: I drew myself. I drew myself like that because I am questioning myself about how I want to look like in real life.

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