I Get Real About My Loneliness

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Published on March 11, 2021 9:13:39 PM ● Video Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SPOrLcFsVt8

Duration: 16:18

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This is the first and last video I'm doing like this, I felt that God wanted me to express myself, and be 100% honest about how I feel in a video.
Pray for me 😮 I don't like to drag people down, but to be frank when you feel like I do, you get past the point of caring.
This isn't a pity party, this is just how my life turned out, life isn't always easy, and there's millions of people in similar situations to myself, pray for them to be helped, until Christ's return,
Amen.

*Update, I had my first relationship at 34, which lasted 6 months...."

Now, there was never anything wrong with being single, Jesus himself was a bachelor, but I'm not Jesus, and I've had NOTHING but being single, it's very tough, loneliness is no joke.
I don't have faith that I'll find anyone suitable for me, let alone while I'm still young, this is the biggest test of my life.

*This video is not about my pen pal who stopped writing to me, I just included it as it's a part of why I feel this way atm.
Indeed, it's not her fault that my life is like this, my life is what it is, I will say this though, and it's that friendship means a lot to me, and it makes a big difference.*

Pen pals are only human, many of whom stop writing (even if it's after 10 or 20 years, in some people's case), it was a big deal to me because of my circumstances.
Years can go by thinking you have a 'friend', then it suddenly stops.
People are busier, have more problems and are more distracted than ever, so that makes it less likely you'll hear from them reliably.
I fully accept that she may have gotten bored with me, or ended up disliking me for whatever reason, too.
I'd be shocked if I ever got a letter again, it's been over a year already (time doesn't mean much to me), but I wouldn't be angry with her, I'd be polite, friendly and civil always.

*To be fair, I hadn't watched any anime for months, lol*

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