Insomnia Files: Goodbye May & 6 Months Of A Wasted Outlook On Life For Being 30 (29.5.2022)
0I wish I had more to say about this video guys. I just want this month to be over. I miss listening to Fall Out Boy, Mariana's Trench and I The Mighty. I hate that I feel like nothing is getting better and everything I do is wrong. I'm tired of being sick and spending my free time isolated stuck in the house where I feel that no one cares about my existence until they need something or I become an inconvenience. I want June to be the start of something better, I want better. No I deserve better! I just... I can just close my eyes and think back to how last ended too easily. I can remember all the uncertainty, feelings of loss, betrayal and feeling like everything as falling apart all at once. I hate that feeling and I hate that so many things intertwined into a single moment that made feel that I was a complete failure in everything that I had try accomplish with my year. That feeling trailed me and attached itself onto all the bad events that have happened this year and I can't do it anymore. I deserve to have a bit of peace of mind and personal peace after six month of feeling like the world and universe were against me. So I'm going to push into this new month and the latter half of the year with this outlook. I can't foresee anything, but I know that being better than I have been up to this point will be the way I continue to survive and I honestly ant to end this year on a higher mark than I did the last. Can't wait to get there, and this is my first step....
Till next week,
Ta Ta For Now