Mask Off (Original Song Open Mic Performance)
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I had to hide myself
for so long
that I sometimes
can't tell what I truly am
hide my quirks
my silly details
embrace the normalcy
so people don't think I'm weird
so I can act like
everyone would act
so I can be more accepted
and not be pushed away
for being way too out there
so I would mask
so much, maybe too much
of myself
but it got so bad
I burned myself out
and got so sad
I beat myself up
for the littlest things
the world is an scary place for people like me
who don't know how to function correctly
and is constantly worried about messing up
and being treated lesser than so I hide the parts that make me who I am and try to focus to be like everyone else but even that it's becoming an little much, too tough, so rough and like I'm never enough for anything but I can't be scared forever
starting to feel better on days where I'm taking
taking the mask off
and show myself the person that isn't like everyone else (take the mask off, take the mask off), be the person I always everyone to see (take the mask off, take the mask off)
I would study
people's movement patterns
and dive into topics and subjects
my brain just can't get interested in
just so I can talk and have more convos
and not just be an quiet boy all the damn time
yet it would burn me out mentally so bad
I just wanted so much to be normally functioning
never show any weird stuff about myself
or sometimes make up details that weren't true
constantly being overwhelmed
feeling like I can't do this or that
always misunderstood, constant misunderstandings so sometimes
I don't even say anything and
keep that mask on
the world is an scary place for people like me
who don't know how to function correctly
and is constantly worried about messing up
and being treated lesser than so I hide the parts that make me who I am and try to focus to be like everyone else but even that it's becoming an little much, too tough, so rough and like I'm never enough for anything but I can't be scared forever
starting to feel better on days where I'm taking
taking the mask off
sometimes I don't even know if I'm doing this or that right, if taking this mask off is the right thing for me but yet I know it is, I wanna be me, I wanna be silly, quirky, fun, kind and not like everyone else in this life
now I'm taking this mask off, this mask off, this mask offffffffffffff and here I am world