the situation on my youtube channel

Channel:

taltigolt

Subscribers:

213,000

Published on January 6, 2020 5:13:32 PM ● Video Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6VklfotViEU

Game:

Grand Theft Auto V (2013)

Duration: 1:14

2,919 views

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to put it simple i think i've quit which everyone realized years ago some day i may make a video if i feel theres a sure chance that it goes viral and that i am alone if not then no, i just can't handle the constant pain over it, every time i upload a video noone watches it everyone complains that it's not good enough, and i don't want to make videos unless i get views, no views just mentally tells me it's a waste of time, it's not about money because my app is now holding me up single handedly enough to get by it's simply about views and attention the feel of being special the attention was always the reason i made videos mostly it was addicting, my channel died a while back i'd say when gta v released which was 7 damn years ago and i see nothing that could change that, youtube simply changed where subscribers doesn't matter if they did i would have an audience i don't, i i want to make youtube videos again fulltime more than anything but if noone watches them then i can't get the motivation to do it i guess i killed the channel because of my lack of selfesteem and confidence in my videos if noone watches them i automatically see them as a waste of time and horrible, it broke me mentally to lose this channel it destroyed me completely i wish i could go back to making videos like i used to where i was alone with it and always could expect a chance to go viral now no, ironically i ignored the tesla cybertruck mod because noone cared about my tesla semi truck mod video turns out the semi truck wasn't popular and that the cybertruck got the attention i thought the semi would, i literally mentally note every single lost video chance i see and then pile them ontop of eachother and go crazy from it.

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