THEY ARE SO +&;#,,@×*#*#
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tbh I don't feel good at all lately I haven't been able to motivate myself to do anything all I do now is just go home from school and sleep I don't feel like eating or drinking or anything I mean school is draining me and so are my friends they keep venting to me nearly every second every hour my mind is full of their problems when I don't wanna be involved anymore anytime I tell them that I'm tired of them venting they bring up my mistakes from last year well she's my only friend rn and she has other friends to go to so I mean if I leave who can I go to anymore I have my own stuff I wanna vent to her about but when I compare it to what she's going through I don't wanna add to her plate like how she's adding to mine I mean everyone is going through what I'm going through with no complaints I mean it's not very fair to them that I can vent it all out and they cant sure I have some friends but I'm mostly a backup when no one is around but being backup is better than having no friend amirite like idk how to explain I can't deal with myself anymore like why do I keep thinking I can't trust anyone and that I'm ruining their mood for venting like I'm just doing it for attention at this point and it's so annoying I know I have friends to support me and stuff but please do I really think my problems can outweighs theirs? like who am I to tell them my problems are worse when they aren't I know that when I'm venting I'm not directly saying that but I feel like I am and like I'm starting to have no motivation for anything and my friends keep asking what's wrong I feel bad for making them worried but why ami ot brave enough to tell them what's wrong what the hell I'm to afraid to go to my family too my sisters already a burden to them so I can't just add on plus if I do they'll just say " Ur being so calculative u know ppl who are calculative can't succeed ? " " Well that's reality deal with it " " Ur acting like ur sister " " Ur only 13 u just have these problems cus ur going through puberty and just want attention " I'm not even sure If I'm just being attention seeking or I'm just not feeling good I'm general even right now I'm venting on YouTube? seriously like wow that's pathetic but whatever I don't know what to do anymore I wish I could help myself