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20Been feeling sort of unmotivated recently. So I apologize in advance for any inconvenience. I will return to NieR: Automata shortly and finish up South Park: The Stick Of Truth by next week, or this week if I'm lucky or if I have the motivation to do so. I apologize from the depths of my heart, ladies and gentlemen. I'll try to be better for all of you, and be a better content creator overall. I'm not going to change who I am, but I'm going to try my damndest to be better. I'm not doing YouTube for fame or exposure. I'm doing YouTube to broadcast myself; what it was in the beginning. I am afraid to do videos sometimes because I'm afraid of screwing up. I didn't say this in the video, but I am afraid of failure; the mere thought of it just depressed me. I know that I cannot please everyone. That's why I appreciate every like, every comment, every piece of feedback I get. I want to make people happy; even if it's a little bit. I... just feel like I'm not doing a very good job of that. But I'm going to try harder to improve myself so I can spread just a bit more of positive vibes in my audience and hopefully even further.
I know this is going to get disliked. So be it. That's your prerogative; if you don't like me, then that's on you. But just know this. I'm not going to stop being who I am just because I get disliked. I'm going to at least try to be positive for every one of my friends out there. They enjoy what I do. I'm confused as to why, but there's a large group of people that like what I do. You can be a part of that if you want to, because I have fun in what I do. I also did not mention this in the video, but I've been battling depression for the past few months. There are some days where I feel extremely unmotivated and sad because my brain tells me that I'm going to screw up somehow. That people are going to hate me for one tiny screw-up. That is NOT a good feeling. But for those of you that have been happy with what I do, I appreciate it from the depths of my heart. I've also realized that YouTube is becoming quite the... wrong place to be if you want to be noticed. Most YouTubers these days are just here for fame or fortune, and that's not what I want. If I'm seen by someone important, then that's fine, but I refuse to let the fame get to me. Fame can change people and turn them into shadows of what they once were. I have seen it happen, and I will not let it happen to me; I promise all of you that. I'm happy to have made a lot of great friends with what I do on YouTube, on Twitter... you guys are a wonderful audience and a great group of friends. I love and appreciate each and every one of you.
Thank you for your continued support. :) Let's continue this crazy ride together, my friends!