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2“This was a humiliation more strange than any i had ever tasted before, a humiliation I could not live with. I suppose I had still not managed to excruciate myself from the from the life of a rich mans son. It was then I myself determined, this time in reality, to kill myself” - No Longer Human, Osamu Dazai
“Some people avoid thinking deeply in public, only because they are afraid of coming across as suicidal .“
“I am aware as I step into the common room that the majority of people here are almost dead, including me. I have been reliably informed that post Christmas blues are entirely normal and that we should expect to feel somewhat numb after the “happiest” times of the year, but I don’t feel so different now to how I felt on Christmas Eve, or on Christmas day, or on any other day since the Christmas holidays started. I’m back now and it’s another year. Nothing is going to happen” - Solitaire, Alice Oceman
“I instantly wish I just shut up. I always do this thing where I accidentally say self depreciating stuff that makes other people feel really awkward, especially when it’s true. I start to wish I had never offered to let him sit with me.“ - Solitaire, Alice Oceman
“I had now lost all confidence in myself, doubted all men immeasurably, and abandoned all hopes for the things of this world, all joy, all sympathy, externally. This was truly the decisive of incident of my life. I had been split through the foreheads between the eyebrows, a wound that was to throb with pain whenever I came in contact with a human being" - No Longer Human, Osamu Dazai
“I don’t blog to get more followers or whatever. I’m not Evelyn. It’s just that it’s not socially acceptable to say depressing stuff out loud in the real world because people think that your attention seeking. I hate that. So what I’m saying is that it’s nice to be able to say whatever I want. Even if it’s only on the Internet.” - Solitaire, Alice Oceman
“Is immaculate trustfulness after all the source of sin?” - No Longer Human, Osamu Dazai
“I think he just loved being with the Bears because they didn’t make him feel bad. I get it too. When he was with the Bears, they didn’t care that he was kind of weird, or that he’s gotten into trouble for drinking too much and using drugs (which apparently he did a lot of). They didn’t ask him a bunch of stupid questions about how he felt, or what he did what he did. They just let him be who he was.“ -Michael Thomas Ford, Suicide notes
“He could only consider me as the living corpse of a would be suicide, a person dead to shame, in idiot ghost” - No Longer Human, Osamu Dazai