The Icarus Files - File Statistics

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Published on January 31, 2024 2:17:00 PM ● Video Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2h6CUa7Voc4

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Statistics tools are a bit hard to come by on Windows, Linux seems to be better off in that department. I might find something I could use in powershell or command prompt but I'll see about that later. On top of that I still have so much material to sort throught, I guess that's what happens when you don't make an effort to create an organised system for your backups and projects. It wasn't until aroudn 2014-2015 that even began keeping separate folders for games and other software, and not until 2020 that I started thinking about a general structure for EVERYTHING!

I have a lot of duplicate documents and text files and many large maps and other images, but if I were to compile everything into singular documents than it would quickly add up to a whole lot that I've worked on over the years. Maybe I'm still bad and still need to learn a lot, who knows, who cares, life is all about learning and experiencing.

I have talked to Finnish lawyers and found the initial answers I need and have a plan for what to do before I continue my consultation with lawyers. Unfortunately I'm not rich so my lawyer is pro deo as stipulated and guaranteed by Finnish law.

I never thought this was what I would end up using my channel for when I first created my gmail and account back in 2010, times sure have changed and I've certainly seen the insincerity of some people. Careful what people you associate with, you might end up hurt or worse.

I have yet to find my success (and I don't measure that in money despite being poor and dreaming of being able to support myself before turning 40 in 2025), and some would perhaps call me bad, but I don't really care. This is my meaning, it is what has kept me alive since the 00s, it is what I need to create, and where I certainly could find a whole bunch of friends to share passion and dreams with. I might never get rich off of game design, development, computer engineering, or even some of the network ideas and online platforms and services, but if I ever get to make it then at least I'll be able to support myself and take care of my own.

Occassionally throughout the years I've wondered whether I would've fit in somewhere in a company working for someone else, first time around 2005 when I dropped out of university, but independent has always been my dream. To find my niche, to find my friends, to find my colleagues, and to build beauty and see where it goes. I might still find that team of passionate friends or that small studio where I could thrive and be happy.

Until then I'll have to try and survive on benefits and look for jobs as a coffee server or cleaner, whatever, no point being a snob. Who knows, I might find a job in IT support or something similar that fits my vocational degree.

Despite my parents being old and in worsening health I will never take care of them. I died on the inside around 2002-2003 and would have to struggle with mental health until 2015 before gettign a second chance at life. Maybe five short years of relative calm before it turned to shit again. I am 38 years old this year, turning 39 in May, and due to meddling by others I still have not been allowed to have the life I wanted. I'm not bitching, I haven't complained, I chose not to be destructive, I just learned on my own instead, slowly building something beautiful for myself.

My parents did they best they could, I had a peaceful childhood, but they've had their lives and their rich experiences, I haven't. When I'm old and standing on my last leg I wouldn't want my children (if I ever have any) to feel bad about me or obligated to take care of me or spend time with me, it's more important that they try to build lives for themselves in a cruel and cold world full of foulness and dishonesty. I also know how I wanted to spend these past few years, how I want to spend my time now and the coming years, so that I don't have to regret my life as I lay on my deathbed.

Never give up.

Life your life so that you don't regret it. It's too late when you're dead.