The Icarus Files - Master Documents: Part 2
0I know what I have exclusive ownership (literal works, graphics, source code, etc.) of an what I don't (mechanics, algorithms, style, story elements, functions, etc.), and me being suspicious or reacting to media over the years also doesn't have to mean anything — I've been learning and designing for so long that it would be a miracle if I didn't find *something* suspicious once in a while. A few reactions, suspicions, and a few neutral ones. Doesn't have to mean anything.
The way someone has been meddling in my life since 2020, however, has brought me great discomfort and has shown me that *something* has indeed been going on, something awfully shady. Due to what I've discussed in therapy in the 00s, what I've learned from articles on writing, and from past incidents I've become used to writing down absolutely everything that I ever work on or come up with — a damn good habit if I may say so!
Good idea, bad ideas, disgusting ideas, emotionally fuelled ideas, whatever comes to mind, no matter your state of mind or mood, always write down everything and keep track of dates and influences.
Even if I don't own certain aspects exclusively, I can still say that I own my many projects and retain the right to work on and make something of what I've spent my time doing while struggling with long term mental health, unemployment, and other sad things that may befall anyone of us at some point.
Sadly it's just taken me longer than usual to get to where I want to be.
I should have been more proactive, I should have sought out like-minded people, but I became apathetic and stopped caring when it became harder and harder to find people that had the same drive, people I could passionately discuss games and design with, people I could encourage and spur on to be creative and to use their abilities.
Sucks, but what can I do about it? C'est la vie!
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