What Happened to Luna?
1"Everyone always said what's wrong with him but nobody ever asked what happened to him"
I seriously don't know whete I was going with this video but it all pretty much spilled out.
The key point of all this is me trying to please everyone else except myself and overthinking about people who do not care about me. I focus more on other people and expected some sort of positive reward for helping others etc etc and then eventually broke down completely when I realize that being nice to others isn't always going to work out how I wish it would.
People often see someone lash out out of nowhere and instantly have a bad connotation of that person but nobody ever thinks about what happened or how it happened.
yeah sure, a lot of my actions over the past couple months have been anything but good but it was something that needed to happen. While I can take down those videos I made, I gunienly cannot apologize for them because I finally was able to let out what kept bringing me down over and over again. it just so unfortunately happen to be the case where my last relationship triggered the bomb inside me. I can take responsibility for my outburst but no one else will take responsibility for their actions to cause it.
so, the final conclusion to all this is that I need to accept that people and the world is not perfect. I need to deal with disappointment or things not working how I'd want them to and reflect on it rather than being upset about it. that's just life and I can't get so worked up over it but I also won't let people walk all over me and continue to be nice to people who simply did not care at all.
calm, cool, and collective. I've got to enjoy life without overthinking about stuff that does not matter in the long run. I don't need to change. I don't need to go out of my way for people who truly care for me. I don't need to do anything I dont want to. I will keep enjoying my life how I want to and be along side the people who will stay beside me.
no more chasing, no more pleasing, and no more living for other people. I live for myself and that's perfectly fine.