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Rainbow Six Siege (2015)

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A question I have always struggled to answer is how do I stay motivated? Spoiler alert: it is actually pretty depressing. I think that the reason I have always struggled with this question is because I always feel so demotivated. It always feels like I am being less than I could or that I am never really going to get to a point in my life where I am satisfied. So, for quite some time it was so hard to even recognize that I have motivation in the first place, let alone address from where it comes. I think it is important for people to think about it and ask themselves “how do I stay motivated?” If we don’t learn the source from which our drive comes then it will make it quite difficult to really exploit that to get to a spot where we are accomplishing what we desire.

The Delicroix Design is a series in which I speak about the design of my mind or the framework of my existence. This can be as deep as the way that I treat other people or as shallow as my thoughts on ice cream. The series exists solely to pull thoughts and idea out of my head and extrapolate them to my audience. My goals with TDD consist of transparency to build a more personal relationship with and inspire my viewers. I hope that some of the topic discussed in previous and future episodes can bring some insight to the people watching and help them take steps to being a better person, whether it is by seeing how much of a douche I am or the opposite.

I worked for several years at Lowe’s questioning what the fuck I am doing with my life and feeling like I was just wasting away. With that comes a lot of curiosity as to how I do I stay motivated while in such a negative situation. I recently had some time off though, prior to which I was so excited to have all the time I could ask for to work on content for my YouTube channel. Once this break began though I found that I was having a really hard time staying motivated to work toward something more. I was comfortable and happy, so I just hung out and watched streams and played games with my friends. It was a good time, but the entire time I was constantly bashing on myself for not getting work done on my channel.

Shortly after going back to work I got super motivated to work on my YouTube content and started to wonder why it was that now that I am at work, when I have less time to actually do it, I really want to get content put out. It finally clicked with me though when I thought about how much I really hated being at work and it finally answered the how do I stay motivated dilemma. Being dissatisfied with my life is what motivates me the most to try and make my wat toward a life that I will love. It kind of sucks that there has to be this stark contrast and so much negativity for me to truly desire something more. Maybe it also makes my reasons selfish deep down, even if it isn’t the reason I actually make content. I have always made videos because it makes me happy.

I guess the fickle trap (I just accidentally spelled that “fuckle”) of all this is that I know how much I enjoy making videos, so making money has never been my motivating factor for doing so; otherwise I would have very obviously stopped making videos long ago. On the other end though, I know how much I enjoy it and everyone always talks about how you need to get a job doing something you love, and they are right. The idea of making money creating content is absolutely insane to think about, but I really believe that if I just keep doing my thing then there is a chance that it could happen. I would never make a change to my channel that I didn’t think was for the betterment of my content, even if it meant that it would put me in a lucrative position on YouTube or Twitch. A lot of people are willing to do that, but the main thing that I like about my content is that it is something that I find enjoyable and about which I am passionate. So, for now, I will keep being motivated by my shitty life and hopefully make good content as a result. If it somehow helps my situation then sick, but if not, then I will keep on doing what I do.

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