"Insomnia" – Black Desert Online [Ninja PvP]

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Published on June 27, 2019 1:55:29 AM ● Video Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QRMzntCUZak

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Black Desert Online (2014)

Duration: 4:01

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"Mastering others is strength. Mastering yourself is true power." - Lao Tzu


I remember in the days before BDO, 1v1 used to be all that I cared about. I would be playing all day looking for people to spar against. I would practice late into the evening until there was no one else to fight. I desired to be a top duelist above all else, and that was what motivated me, and kept me up at night. Yet, on BDO, I just haven't felt the same. I mean, PvP is still the primary activity I enjoy, that much haven't changed. But so far, Battle Arena seems to have taken the back seat.

Interests shift, for better or for worse. I still strive to continuously improve, and become a better player day by day; I am still committed to focusing on using skill rather than gear to win fights; and I still care a lot about the quality of my PvP videos. It's just that I have been dedicating my attention to World PvP and Node Wars, rather than Dueling.

Why, you ask? A variety of reasons, I suppose. Maybe it is because I am busier now than ever before, and would rather just jump straight into large fights with what little free time I have. Maybe it's because I've been dueling for 8 years, and I feel like it's time to do something new. Maybe I'm just not entirely satisfied with BDO's mechanics right now and don't feel like dueling seriously. Well, it's some combination of it all, I guess.

This is new to me though. For years, I have strived to become one of the best duelist, and I have always measured success with respect to that goal in mind. Now, my goal has changed, the situations I get myself into are different, and the things I get to practice and improve on are not as it was before. In group PvP, I am fighting different people each time, and often multiple people simultaneously. Unlike dueling, there are very few opportunities to gain knowledge on each individual class. Each possible composition is essentially a new match up, resulting in infinitely many combinations of match ups to encounter, making it harder to notice improvements. That's why most of my current strategies rely on simply abusing iframes so that I don't get hit, rather than analyzing what my opponent is doing and responding accordingly. It would be hard for me to do that right now, since I still have only superficial understanding of classes other than my own.

But I never needed to change my measurement of success before. For the past few months, I've been trying to measure my progress using my old mindset. However, I've begun to realize that it is simply not compatible with my current playstyle and priorities. It became impossible to live up to my old standards no matter what I did, and this has been making me lose sleep.

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At the end of the day, it all depends on what mindset I choose to adapt. On one hand, games are meant to be fun. Maybe it's ok if being the top duelist isn't my priority right now. Maybe it's ok to step back and relax a bit for the time being... You know how in PvE, if you try to rush progression too much, it may just result in burn out? So maybe it's the same for PvP too. If you think about it, these videos I been making document changes in my gameplay over time. So in a way, they're basically progression videos, but for PvP skill instead of PvE stats. So maybe I can find solace in that. On the other hand, maybe I won't... Maybe this is just a phase. Maybe I am too competitive by nature to not give it my all. Only time will tell.

I don't remember if I ever mentioned it, but the original reason I started making videos was so that I could review them later and fix my mistakes. So hey, no matter what happens, I still got that going for me.


But until then, I hope you enjoy this "episode of updates on my progression"!


Music:
Faithless – Insomnia (Fedde Le Grand Remix)

Character:
CollegeTuition - Lv. 62 Ninja - Family AllLuckNoSkill

Gear:
https://imgur.com/7XI7Wew
557 GS
261 AP / 261 AAP / 296 DP

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